Friday, May 28, 2010
'When you need to be loved, you take love from wherever you can find it. When you are desperate to be loved, feel love, know love, you seek out what you think love should look like. When you find love, or what you think love is, you will lie, kill and steal to keep it. But learning about real love comes from within. It cannot be given. It cannot be taken away. It grows from your sense of self. It grows from your ability to recreate within yourself, the essence of loving experiences you have had in your life. When you have not had loving experiences, or when you do not have a sense of self, the true essence of love eludes you. Instead you hold onto, reach out to, and find yourself embroiled in, your mistaken beliefs about yourself and love.' Excerpt from 'Yesterday, I Cried' by Iyanla Vanzant.
Love has eluded me. I thought it was outside of myself, I was mistaken. I believe that we cannot give from an 'empty cup' and I've been empty and depleted for a long time. Now that I'm working on my sense of self and 'filling my cup', I'm moving towards being able to give freely from my overflow. I'm expanding my capacity to FEEL. I'm laying foundations. I'm preparing my heart for miraculous things to come.