Wednesday, June 30, 2010
'Detach from the outcome. In detachment lies the wisdom of uncertainty. Relinquish your rigid attachment to a specific result and live in the wisdom of uncertainty. Attachment is based on fear and insecurity, while detachment is based on the unquestioning belief in the power of your true Self. And in our willingness to step into the unknown, the field of all possibilities, we surrender ourselves to the Creative Mind that orchestrates the dance of the Universe.' ~ The Chopra Center Path to Wellness Blog
'Out beyond ideas of right doing
and wrong doing,
There is a field.
I'll meet you there.' ~ Rumi
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I am a child of the Universe and have access to and am connected to an infinite source of Universal abundance. Everything I desire comes to me in perfect ways and at exactly the right time.
'Abundance is not something we acquire. It is something we tune into.' ~ Dr. Wayne. W. Dyer
Monday, June 28, 2010
My heart is a garden. It is tender and fragile, the newest of new greens, a bright, light green colour, the colour of the heart Chakra, the colour of new life and of growth, it pulsates with new heart energy.
First, an intention was planted there, a seed of love - my intention to heal my heart, to transform my Being. A germination of this seed took place. Next, I sprouted roots which are the strong foundations of self love and forgiveness, love from inside, love turned inward. Some firm roots to provide a grounding, to hold myself lovingly and prepare my heart for the budding of a new way of Being, for heart-led manifestations, beginnings and possibilities. Now, my greenness is beginning to spread, to reach outward. Young shoots begin to sprout and grow, my expression of unconditional love energy is emerging and being expressed to the world. My miracle.
My heart was a stone - dry, cold, hard, closed and impenetrable. The only way I knew how to breathe was to shut down emotionally and protect myself, to survive. Now during this time of tender blossoming, I feel a softening, a yielding, a surrendering, an awakening. Such joy, such pain to feel again. It's incredibly painful to FEEL my heart, this breaking open, this release. I'm enduring the pain of this process, these growing pains. My heart is now a tender place I can feel, a place from which to share myself, to guide my decisions and lead my life. It's a box to hold memories. It's a doorway to a more loving way of life. A more loving me.
Daily I quietly tend to the garden of my heart, I feed my heart garden with affirmations and spiritual nourishment, I water my heart with gratitude. I remind myself that I am loveable. I carefully weed and prune away the pain and resentments I've held onto, slowly releasing the grief I locked away there. Letting go of the old hardened shell, the cynicism, the criticism. I'm preparing my heart garden for magnificent love. I'm making space there. I am healing. I am designing it from the first seed, creating it. My beautiful heart garden full of potential. I lovingly anticipate the flourishing of beautiful, colourful and very rare blooms this spring.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Text from 'The Triple Goddess Tarot' written and created by Isha Lerner and illustrated by Mara Friedman. Describing the open heart, a celebration of the Divine Feminine and Her connection (and ours) to the earth and Spirit.
'A beautiful goddess embraces the womb seed of new love. She caresses it near Her heart. Her fiery garment emanates waves of vibrational Life force that move upward out of the earth through Her body. This is the luminous energy of Tantra, the art of spirit-filled love, taught by the masters in the Eastern schools of initiation. It illuminates Her first and second Chakras - the centres of creativity and procreation. Her sexual desire is merged with the all-knowing aspect of Divine love. The upper region of Her body is blue, the color of truth. It is as if the vastness of the sky were united with Her body so that a tiny orb of the Moon can glow within Her. This inner Moon reflects the light of her original truth, revealing the infinite source of Love that is her birthright, the eternal gift of the Divine Feminine.'
Isha Lerner is an author, astrologer, Tarot consultant, scholar and flower essence teacher.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Friday, June 25, 2010
'The thing about the act of blessing is that the world doesn’t change; it’s only we who change! In our willingness to acknowledge and release whatever it is that has hurt us, the world looks different and we become stronger, healthier people.' ~ Secrets of the Lost Mode of Prayer by Gregg Braden.
If we can find the strength to bless the very things that hurt us, we have found one of the keys to changing ourselves and our lives. The way we experience this change is magical. I've found in my healing journey that as I grow my emotional capacity and am learning how to forgive myself and others and release my pain, everything around me seems somehow different. Things become easier, people become nicer, I get green lights and find parking spaces, everything is more peaceful, more meaningful and more beautiful. It's an energy shift that takes place within us as we feel, forgive, love, bless, release, and heal. It is our transforming selves that are reflected back at us as our experience in the world. Amazing.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Dr. David Simon ~ the CEO, Medical Director and Co-founder of the Chopra Centre for Wellbeing and world-renowned authority in the field of mind/body medicine, was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumour a week ago. I've been following his progress and messages on his website. The shock when I read the news brought me to tears. He has been in my thoughts and prayers, I'm amazed at his strength and courage. The outpouring of love from the extended Chopra global community inspires me. We are in this life together, we are connected. Sending you healing light, David. Yod He Vav He.
An excerpt from his letter on Tuesday June 22, 2010:
'As I consider the meaning of this experience, I can only share with you that everything we have been exploring together on the journey into healing, transformation, and awakening seems more relevant than ever. Healing is about returning to wholeness and I am experiencing an effortless flow into deeper connectivity with my family, friends, community and nature. The peace that pervades the cells in my body and the thoughts in my mind is succulently luscious and supports a sense of appreciation for every moment.
I encourage you to share this reminder of the beautiful delicacy of life with me. Take a few minutes today to feel the sun on your face, wiggle your toes in the grass or inhale the fragrance of a summer flower. Tell someone in your life that you love them unconditionally. Take a few moments to do something creative that brings you a wave of joy. Prepare yourself a delicious colorful meal, and savor it. Struggle less today and celebrate more.'
Dr. David Simon ~ The Chopra Centre for Wellbeing.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
'It is the silence between the notes that makes the music; it is the space between the bars that holds the tiger.' ~ Zen Quote
'Silence is the language of God.' ~ Swami Sivananda
'The more I listen, the more profound the silence becomes.' ~ Dr. Wayne. W. Dyer
The absences, the silences, the beyondness and the in-betweenness. How powerful to contemplate the space between, the gap, the silent space where peace can be found. Meditation focuses our attention on the space between our thoughts. All creation stems from the great silence, all creativity requires some stillness. Our sense of inner peace depends on spending some of our life energy in silence - to recharge us, to centre us, to ease tension and anxiety, to reacquaint us with the joy of knowing God and to feel closer to all humanity. Ask in silence, listen in silence, and let silence be the pathway to becoming ONE with the creative force of the Universe.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
'There is within each of us the possibility of magnificence. Every moment is an opportunity to make it manifest. Let the Spirit awaken you to a miraculous life.' ~ Marianne Williamson
I am willing to see my magnificence. I am the powerful co-creator of the blessings in my life. I am manifesting love and acceptance, further growth. I am awakening. I welcome my new life, my miraculous life, my magnificent life.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
There are places she cannot touch, there is a private blooming she cannot see. She notices the evolution of my body but I keep my beautiful secret. She has no access to the real depths of my metamorphosis, how I am truly changing, no access to the heart of me. The most significant changes are not external. I protect myself with healing light and a deep sense of knowing - knowing my own beauty, knowing my own worth, knowing my own happiness, loving and accepting myself for the first time. These are MY precious and fragile new gifts, just budding within. These are miracles to me. Today I was courageous and I survived. My wounds were not reopened today but I still have the scars. Can I heal them? Can I learn to forgive?
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Now I walk in Beauty,
Beauty is before me,
Beauty is behind me, above and below me.
Lakshmi ~ the Hindu goddess of wealth, prosperity, light, wisdom, fortune, fertility, generosity and courage - the embodiment of beauty and grace. She is the personification of Kundalini - the spiritual energy within us and the Universe. Lakshmi is the embodiment of God's superior spiritual feminine energy, which purifies, empowers and uplifts us. Beauty all around us.
Friday, June 18, 2010
'In the ruddy shade of the red tent, the menstrual tent, they ran their fingers through my curls, repeating the escapades of their youths, the sagas of their childbirths. Their stories were like offerings of hope and strength poured out before the Queen of Heaven, only these gifts were not for any god or goddess - but for me. I can still feel how my mothers loved me. I have cherished their love always. It sustained me. It kept me alive. Even after I left them, and even now, so long after their deaths, I am comforted by their memory.' ~ Excerpt from 'The Red Tent' by Anita Diamant.
Root Chakra Affirmation:
'The earth supports me as I love and nourish my body.'
This time of energy leaving my body, of draining, of bleeding, is a time of celebration. I celebrate my menstrual gift, the sign of my body healing, of my fertility. I celebrate myself as a woman, as part of womanhood, our cycles in sync with the phases of the moon, our primal connection to the earth, our power as women to create life within our wombs. To be mothers. This is a time of rest, reflection and contemplation, a time to be insular, quiet and warm. The pain is a right of passage, a ceremony. I create a safe and sacred space for myself now, surround myself with red - the root chakra colour - the colour of grounding, safety, blood, life. I prepare my environment, making it fragrant and beautiful, I treat myself with ultimate care and nurture myself. I engage my very clear memories of being wrapped in my mother's embrace, surrounded by love, immersed in it. I hold onto that feeling and let it support me.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
'I am conscious of being on the outside of it: it actually makes me feel an intruder, someone who should not be here at all, should not be allowed to gaze upon you in this ineffable moment of sleep. Because here you are totally vulnerable, you have no protection against the world. Except the protection of you own self. Which, being so unfathomable, leaves you so naked that you may just as well have been peeled from your skin, a grape, a transparent fruit, light in the heart of light. And that is a mystery, for ever. And yet by falling asleep beside me, you have sanctioned, silently, this intrusion and this gaze. To sleep with someone can be more intimate than making love. It is a yielding, and a trust, that cannot be compared to anything else. You have granted me this. Can I ever be worthy of it? This is the moment I come closest to understanding something of that overused and misunderstood word: love.'
Excerpt from the novel 'Before I Forget' by André Brink. Aaah, this book.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
'I can dance through life. Make sure you dance everyday. Even a few steps will keep you buoyant and feeling free. No music available? Then hum or sing and dance to your own music. Feel you can’t dance? Then wiggle your hips or skip around the room. Let Life know you’re alive!' ~ Louise. L. Hay
Monday, June 14, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
'Somehow the dark things reveal more about us. Perhaps in the end there is not all that much difference between darkness and light. The problem lies in our way of seeing.' ~ 'Before I Forget' by André Brink.
It was my desire to reconcile my darkness and my light. These two polarities within myself and my life, one joyful, one painful. Now I see that my darkness and my light are two sides of the same thing - two sides of my Being, two perspectives of my capacity to feel. They don't need to be reconciled, they are inseparable. My darkness obscured my light for a long time, an inner eclipse. The darkness gave birth to the light in me. The one creates the other, the one forgives the other, the one heals the other. I realise that everything I have lived before made it possible for this time of growth, acceptance, forgiveness and transformation to happen. I had to find the strength and will to acknowledge my darkness, to face it, to feel it. I now forgive my darkness, I accept it, I'm ready to heal it.
This joyful emergence of my authentic Self IS the healing of my pain, the beginning of the healing. The deeply felt, totally ingrained, lack of self-esteem and self-doubt - the dark and hopeless thoughts and feelings of unworthiness, of being unlovable and rejected and never being enough. They are limiting beliefs. I call these thoughts and feelings 'the blades', as they have been well-hidden sharp weapons I've used on my soul. These wounds are self-inflicted. I've repeatedly cut myself on them, each time I attract and create situations in my life that keep me in my pain vortex. The blades are closer to the surface now and are more accessible, as my capacity to feel widens and I heal. Perhaps they are becoming redundant, are they on their way to being healed? That is my hope.
The sanctity I feel in this moment of my journey - this sacred space, this deep breath I'm inhaling, taking the time to enjoy my decision to reveal (and no longer conceal) my beauty to the world - this unveiling of the spirit and celebration of the Self, however unnerving, could not be possible if I had not found the courage to travel through the steep, daunting pathway towards awakening, my own personal new dawn.
The light, although a happiness, can be blinding, it can feel bright and overwhelming, in contrast to the darkness I am used to. I know that the anxiety I feel embracing the emergence of my light is the presence of my darkness. I'm learning how to be present with both my darkness and my light simultaneously and make space for both of them, without judgment.
Everything at the perfect time.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
'The one person I am with forever is myself. My relationship with myself is eternal, so I choose to support myself. I choose to love and accept myself and talk to myself as I would a beloved person in my life. I saturate all the cells in my body with love, and they become vibrantly healthy. I relate with love to all of life.' ~ Louise L. Hay
Thursday, June 10, 2010
'To realise your true nature, you must wait for the right moment and the right conditions. When the time comes, you are awakened as if from a dream. You understand that what you have found is your own and doesn't come from anywhere outside.' ~ Buddhist Sutra
I'm learning to accept my reflection in the mirror. Love who I see and be encouraged by what I see. Photographs of ourselves are like mirrors, to see ourselves as the world sees us. This can amuse us, hurt us, embarrass us and astound us. I have a new way of seeing. My perception of myself is transforming as I am transforming. I can see things about myself that I've never seen before. I can see the emergence of my femininity. I'm faced with the power of my own beauty, in this delicate space of metamorphosis and uncertainty, at this age, in this body. For the first time in this process, I feel that my inside has begun to reflect my outside, my inner realm of healing and transformation is now reflected outwardly. I glow, I have a light in my eyes, I have a lightness of spirit, I am happier within myself. I am opening, I am learning how to lead my life with my heart. Reflected back at me is my resilience, tenacity and commitment to myself, all the physical proof of my journey so far. I see my own true nature. I love witnessing the emergence my beautiful, authentic Self. A blossoming. It's time to BE who I am, to OWN who I am, to LOVE who I am, to SHARE who I am and realise that who I truly am is who I always have been and who I was meant to be. Now that's something to smile at the camera about!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
'It is in the knowledge of the genuine conditions of our lives that we must draw our strength to live and our reasons for living.' ~ Simone de Beauvoir.
'The more clearly you understand yourself and your emotions, the more you become a lover of what is'. ~ Baruch Spinoza
Our lives have meaning, just as they are. It is our illusions that rob us of meaning, not our reality. When we accept our reality, we claim our strength and reasons for living. Genuine acceptance of what IS, is a very liberating concept. There's a lot of beauty and magic in the seemingly mundane, ordinary everyday. Let's learn to appreciate exactly where we are today and see that it's exactly where we're meant to be.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
It is possible honour my sensitivity - a beautiful, silky, soft, feminine, lacy, fragile inner skin that is easily disturbed, stretched, pierced and even torn. Saying I'm 'too sensitive' is like saying I'm 'too beautiful'. I acknowledge my sensitivity and fragility and celebrate that these things are part of what makes me, me.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Sunday, June 6, 2010
The film adaptation of the award-winning novel by Anne Michaels - 'Fugitive Pieces' entranced and captivated me. It's beautifully written. It's a story about war, loss, family history, refuge, memories, grief, writing, expression, healing, connection and love. It's lyrical, poetic, sad, uplifting and filled me with hope.
This is one of my favourite excerpts from the screenplay. The main character, Jakob Beer, a writer and historian, reads an entry from his journal, a letter to his future child:
'I pray that soon my wife will feel new breath inside her own, I pray and press my head against her side and whisper a story... Child I long for, child I dream ~ if we conceive you, think of us sometimes, your mother and me, when it rains. And one day, when you've almost forgotten, I pray you'll let us return. That through an open window - even in the middle of a city - the sea air of our marriage will find you. I pray that one day in a room lit only by night snow, you'll suddenly know how miraculous is your parent's love for each other. My son, my daughter ~ Bela, Bella. If we conceive you, know that I was once lost in a forest. I was so afraid that my blood pounded in my chest and I knew my heart's strength would soon be exhausted. I saved myself without thinking. I grasped the two syllables closest to me, replaced my heartbeat with your name: BEL-LA. Now I see that I must give what I most need.'
And here, Jakob reveals his journal to his wife, Michaela, who reads:
'What do our bodies make us believe? That we are never ourselves until we contain two souls. Now I'm not afraid of inhabiting darkness, night after night it's happiness that wakes me. There is room at last for everyone I have ever loved. As Michaela approaches, I shake like a compass needle, feeling for the first time a future - my words, my life, no longer separate. After decades of hiding in my skin, here is a woman that would slowly undress my spirit, bring my body to belief.'
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Feel your heart. Let your heart heal you. Your heart is plump and tender, pulsing with love, so full and expansive, so sweet, so gentle, your sweet heart. Let it wash any constrictions in your body and mind and bathe your emotions with unbending, undying, unending, unconditional love. Bathe your organs with that sweet, expansive river of healing energy. Wash your very Being with the sweet healing nectar of your heart - feel it flow, feel it love you with each beat, feel it release, feel it surrender. Feel each tightness and constriction, each clenching and defensive posture slowly give way to love. Feel any constriction unfolding, feel yourself opening up. Feel yourself lighten your load - whatever weight is laying on your heart or pulling on your gut or speaking to you - release it, let it lift off and flow through the cosmos. Pure unconditional love, gratitude and abundance - let's bask in that for a while. Namaste.
Excerpt from 'Journey into Healing' Guided Meditation by Davidji from The Chopra Centre for Wellbeing.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
The Law of Least Effort: Water is fluid, soft and yielding. But - water will wear away rock, which is rigid and cannot yield. As a rule, whatever is fluid, soft and yielding will overcome whatever is rigid and hard. This is paradox: what is soft is strong. ~ Lao-Tzu
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
As I lose weight, I am gaining Self. I am moving past my plateau at last, I weighed in this morning and am closer to my goal than ever before. Like any journey, I'm progressing one step at a time. I am losing weight, I am letting go of limiting beliefs, I am releasing long suppressed grief, I am unlocking my heart. I am gaining self-awareness, a new body awareness, a new way of seeing myself (+ new hair!) I am embracing my femininity and delighting in the emergence of my sensuality. I am learning the value of self-nurturance and am gaining an understanding of how to love and forgive myself - in this body, at any size. I am experiencing healing on all levels - this process is pure synchronicity - as I discover deeper levels of emotional healing and spiritual acceptance, my physical body is changing and healing ~ all is connected. I'm a true work in progress.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
My Mich ~ You are an angel in my life. You are beautiful inside and out. Thank you for being with me on this journey. Sending you healing light, my friend. I love you so very much.
'She became an island of light, fun, wisdom
Where I could run with my discoveries and torments and hopes
At any time of day and find welcome.' ~ May Sarton