Monday, April 25, 2011

My Year ~ My Gift

'I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday.' ~ Author Unknown

Today I celebrate 365 daily posts. This has been MY year! Writing this blog has become a daily meditation, a journey in itself, a commitment to myself, a way to connect with my own Soul. Here I am able to bring focus to my healing goals and build a daily practice, breath by breath, thought by thought. This is a place where I can create something just for me. It is a personal, Sacred expression of my deepest Self, where each discovery, each heartbreak, each revelation of this spiritual awakening can be recorded ~ and savoured. I can review each step of this process, my precious and unique journey of Life, my return to wholeness on all levels. This is a place where I can keep beautiful images and thoughts that inspire me, where I can keep beautiful things and allow those things to become reflections of my own newly-recognised inner and outer beauty. This process has been a gift I've given myself.

From this day I have decided to approach my healing blog a little differently. Now is the time to adopt a more organic approach. Intuitively, I recognise that going forward I no longer need to complete daily posts but rather flow with a more fluid, lighter energy and only write when I feel like writing, when there are moments of meaning and significance that call to be recorded and shared. I will open my inner senses and follow my intuition.

I end this year at the sea ~ a special time for unwinding, letting the stresses of life melt away, a time spent with good friends, a peaceful time for meditation and soul-searching, a time to reflect on the next chapters of my ever-changing journey.

Love and light to all who have followed my posts for the past year, to those who have just stumbled upon my blog and connected with a single post and to all my future fellow travelers. I am so grateful to share my journey with you. I wish you peace. Namaste.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Keys to Positive Change

'The two main keys to positive change in my life are self-approval and self-acceptance. I know that these qualities work to make my life the best it can be.' ~ Louise L. Hay

Saturday, April 23, 2011

You with You

'There is only one relationship: you with you, partnering with Self. The vibrational relationship between the inner you, Source Creation, your inner male and female creative spiritual energies, with the outer you, the personality mask you wear in the world. The distance between the two, is the amount of happiness or discord in your life. Feelings are the barometer to measure your alignment along that continuum. The goal is to close the distance in the gap, to synthesise all expressions into a functioning unit of inner organisation that is an authentic expression of the essential Self and then lose your self as identity into Being. In that Being, reflect Love to others in a beautiful way, so they can see their God-Self in you.' ~ Alisa Battaglia-Schiff

Friday, April 22, 2011

Find Meaning

'Re-frame your experiences to reflect your truth.
Listen carefully to your own intuitive knowledge.
Many things society regards as negative,
are not so.
Menopause is an initiation,
not a tragedy or a death.
Fear can be a wake-up call
to courage and alertness.

All suffering and difficulties
can be profound learning experiences and rites of passage.
Wide hips are birthing chambers.
Grey hairs are signs of maturity.
Walking tall honours yourself,
and your ancestors and your place in life.

We are free to find the meaning we choose
and this will change through time.
Changing your mind is
a sign of intelligence
not inconstancy!
Finding a positive interpretation
gives strength and power
and a sunny disposition.'

Excerpt from 'Eve-olution ~ Enriching Feminine Consciousness and Body Awareness' by Marguerite van der Merwe

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Instrument of Our Soul

'Meditation in its essence is about vibrating between the level of the personal and Universal, between mind and no-mind, between constriction and expansion. Even in constriction, we are not attached to a particular outcome or resisting what IS, we are just observing with witnessing awareness. As we meditate on a regular basis, we become increasingly awake and aware of the connection between mind and no-mind, without judging either state. In the process, we shift our identity from our ego to the silent witness that is not bound in time or space. With this expansion of Self comes freedom and creativity. Then our mind becomes the instrument of our Soul that is whispering its Sacred message to you.' ~ Dr. David Simon

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Unite Us

'The diverse details of a life don't divide us as much as the common insights unite us.' ~ Joanne Fedler

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Deep Within You

'All that you need is deep within you, waiting to unfold and reveal itself. All you have to do is be still and take time to seek what is within and you will surely find it.' ~ Eileen Caddy

Monday, April 18, 2011

The Detachment Lesson

'Many confuse forgiveness with acceptance. When we forgive someone we are NOT accepting a particular behaviour. We are simply loving OURSELVES enough to move on and grow in a healthy, positive direction. I prefer to call it detachment. Once we are in a healthy place, we can decide if someone should be in our lives or not. Detachment is indeed a challenge, but a most powerful lesson to learn.' ~ Eric Allen

Sunday, April 17, 2011

We Are One

'We are on a journey of becoming that which we already are.' ~ Leonard Jacobson

This week's meditation group was a wonderfully reassuring experience ~ as always. I felt the need to attend the group after taking a two week break from it. Lately I've been feeling very stressed and overwhelmed, struggling to maintain the fragile healing/living equilibrium. I have been making a bit more space for work and sorting things, without enough time and energy for healing. I've been caught up in a whirlwind of fear and self-doubt, finding it difficult to trust. To trust Life (and trust people!) Somehow I'm still finding the will and strength to push through these feelings of doubt, become clear about my intentions and take decisive action. I'm feeling the fear and doing it anyway! In the process I find myself reverting to old energy patterns, relying on 'all I once knew', being masculine energy dominant! At the same time, I'm trying to get back on track with my physical health, working at alleviating painful symptoms and restoring balance to my body. I've been calling on my angels, following my angelic guidance and trying to just have faith. Last Wednesday evening was a time for me to reconnect with my essence, to gladly partake in the collective stilling of our minds. To look deep within and find reassurance (and get an hour or so of peace from my anxious thought-filled mind!!)

This meditation focused on strengthening our connection to our Higher Selves, the part of ourselves that already knows itself to be whole. My safe place in nature was the seashore. I was lying on a big weathered rock, with crashing waves all around me and the strong smell of the sea. A shimmering light on the horizon invites me to investigate, I walk along the sand towards it, walk through this light into another time an space. I find myself high up on a mountain top, the fresh breeze and high altitude making me light-headed. This is a place close to the heavens where Father Sky and Mother Earth meet. There is a clearing, I step into it. A crystal pyramid of light appears above me, surrounding me. This is a safe place, a sacred place, I sense a powerful love energy in my pyramid. I am filled with peace, happiness and forgiveness. Healing rainbows, light refractions and swirling golden shimmers appear all around me. I am showered in positive, warm, healing energy. My Highest Self appears before me. I cannot see specific physical attributes, I feel an angelic presence. It is a Being of white light, a formless entity full of love and light. Like a blossoming white flower, opening to reveal it's beauty. I can feel a natural unity, a very strong sense that my Highest Self is an integral part of me. I recognise my Soul, my Self. We are fully synchronised, we are ONE.

This meditation brought out very strong emotional reactions to everything I saw and experienced, as opposed to getting caught up in elaborate imagery as before. I FELT everything deeply. Being as one with my Highest Self filled me with an overwhelming sense of CLARITY. I felt pure, clear, light and free. Lisa said perhaps this meditation serves to reinforce the purifying healing practices and lightening of my physical symptoms along this journey. I feel that this mirrors my clear intentions and decisive actions of late. I also feel that I'm experiencing a purer connection to my Mom's spirit lately, having experienced night after night of vivid dreams where she appears to me and we discuss everything. I feel close to her through the dimensions. (Also helps that I'm currently reading 'Destiny of Souls' by Michael Newton!)

The angel cards I selected were: 'CRYSTAL ~ Have faith and hope, there is something positive and new on the horizon that you can't yet see.' and 'DIANA ~ Focused Intention ~ Keep your unwavering thoughts, feelings and actions focused on your target and you will make your mark.'

I am being clear and trusting the good that is coming my way! I'm feeling good about the most stressful things being behind me now, I'm letting the anguish I've been clinging to drop away from my Being this weekend. Just letting go. Breathing. I'm proud of my ability to see myself through these decisions, however taxing on my system. I believe that every moment of this life with all it's challenges is an opportunity for growth. I'm excited about what's just around the corner! I KNOW that whatever lies before me, light, dark or grey, neutral ~ I have the invaluable resource of my inner wisdom to guide and restore me. I am one with the Power that created me, with the creative intelligence field, I AM my Highest Self. I can draw on the eternal ONENESS from which I was born and envelop myself in infinite amounts of peaceful, clear, pure love and light at any moment and BE FREE.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

New Day

'Today is a new day. I am in charge. I am one with the Power that created me.' ~ Louise L. Hay

Friday, April 15, 2011

Love and Accept

'Life is sacred. I hold in my heart all the parts of myself ~ the infant, the child, the teenager, the young adult, the adult, my present and future self. My story includes every success and every failure, every error and every truthful insight, and all of it is VALUABLE. I have compassion for ME, and I also feel compassion for others. I create a life of acceptance and understanding.' ~ Louise L. Hay

'The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely.' ~ Carl Jung

The most terrifying and the most beautiful thing, to finally take responsibility to love and accept myself fully. All of me.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

The Law of Dharma

Everyone has a purpose in life. A unique gift or special talent to give to others. When we blend this unique talent with service to others, we experience the ecstasy and exultation of our own Spirit, which is the ultimate goal of all goals.

I will put the Law of Dharma into effect by making a commitment to take the following steps:

~ Today I will lovingly nurture the God or Goddess in embryo that lies deep within my soul. I will pay attention to the Spirit within me that animates both my body and my mind. I will awaken myself to this deep stillness within my heart. I will carry the Consciousness of timeless, eternal Being in the midst of time-bound experience.

~ I will make a list of my unique talents. Then I will list all the things that I love to do while expressing my unique talents. When I express my unique talents and use them in the service of humanity, I lose track of time and create Abundance in my life as well as in the lives of others.

~ I will ask myself daily: 'How can I serve?' and 'How can I help?' The answers to these questions will allow me to help and serve my fellow human beings with Love.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Balance is Key

'Cardiac coherence is the balance between the sympathetic (accelerator) versus parasympathetic (brake) autonomic nervous system. When we always have our foot on the accelerator, we're in 'fight or flight' without enough 'rest and restore.' Hormonal imbalance - plus sugar cravings - are the result. The solution: Find things to appreciate and laugh about! Simple. Not easy.' ~ Dr. Christaine Northrup

If I over-commit with work and obligations, I find that I lean towards overwhelm, where my masculine energy dominates to see me through a stressful time. This causes a mind/body/energy imbalance (the route of my hormonal issues!) and the result is that I feel really ill... depleted and overwhelmed, with symptoms such as headaches, flushed cheeks, anxiety and depression, abdominal pain and insomnia. Balance is key ~ if my body, mind and soul start to suffer, I have to ask myself: what is it all really worth? These are stresses and strains of my own creation. Now I make sure I have enough quiet solitude to give myself healing time, where my feminine energy has space to nurture and recharge me. A startling truth I have discovered is that for me, self-nurturance work is just as important as the work that produces income, if not more.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


'Faith is the bird that sings when the dawn is still dark.' ~ Rabindranath Tagore

Today is a day to have faith and let go, detach from the outcome. I know in my heart that all will be well. I trust.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Suffering as Message

'See Life's inevitable discomforts, dissatisfactions,
stresses, sufferings,
not as 'failures'
but as messages ~
wake up calls ~ revelations ~ symbols ~ metaphors ~ soul-talk.
Serendipitous opportunities
communicating with you.

Be alive and open
to impulses and responses.
To dreams, events, symptoms,
thoughts, feelings, sensations.
Let understanding and intuition arise
instead of trying reactively to change
or fix things.

Listening means opening,
receiving, respecting,
dialoguing with yourself.
Open to nuance, the Unknown,
the possibility of freshness, newness, change.'

Excerpt from 'Eve-olution ~ Enriching Feminine Consciousness and Body Awareness' by Marguerite van der Merwe

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Own Special Light

'We are each gifted in a unique and important way. It is our privilege and our adventure to discover our own special light.' ~ Mary Dunbar

Saturday, April 9, 2011

We Can Float

'Our thoughts are creative. This is the most important law of nature we need to know. One idle thought doesn’t make much difference, but thoughts are like drops of water - they accumulate. As we continue to rethink the same thoughts over a period of time, they become puddles, ponds, lakes or oceans. If they’re positive, we can float on the oceans of life.' ~ Louise L. Hay

Friday, April 8, 2011

Choice vs Chance

'A life lived of choice is a life of conscious action. A life lived of chance is a life of unconscious creation.
' ~ Neale Donald Walsch

Today I'm making a choice ~ a choice to TRUST and go with Life. This change feels like taking a chance but I know that I am Divinely guided and am consciously taking action. I have the strength to face my fears and doubts and make it through my anxiety. My angels are here with me. I trust, I trust.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Whispers of Truth

'It is only when we silent the blaring sounds of our daily existence that we can finally hear the whispers of truth that life reveals to us, as it stands knocking on the doorsteps of our hearts.' ~ K.T. Jong

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Act of Trust

'Manifestation is an act of trust. It is the soul pouring itself out into the world, like a fisherman casting a net to gather in the fish he seeks; with each cast properly made, we will bring what we need to us, but first we must hurl ourselves into the depths without knowing just what lies beneath us.' ~ David Spangler

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

None of My Business

'What other people think of me is none of my business. One of the highest places you can get to is being independent of the good opinions of other people.' ~ Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

'I was once afraid of people saying: Who does she think she is? Now I have the courage to stand and say: This is who I am.' ~ Oprah Winfrey

'Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising which tempt you to believe that your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage.' ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

I rise above other people's pettiness and insecurities, that's their karma. I stand in my truth and I let it go. Sometimes an unexpected change in direction can surprise and disappoint. I acknowledge these feelings. I trust in the flow of the Universe and the unknowable power my ever-present angels guiding my way. All will be well.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Ripple Mindfully

'How shall we ripple out into the world today? Who will we see? Who will we touch? What will we say or do that will flow through the ether and build a house in someone's head for decades? What seeds will you plant today ~ consciously and unconsciously? Let's ripple mindfully ~ we can create soothing caresses, sweet tear drops and powerful tsunamis!'
~ Davidji

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Define Yourself

'When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself.'
~ Dr. Wayne W. Dyer

Saturday, April 2, 2011


'Paying attention to the body
focuses the mind
and brings emotions to calmness.
It is amazing
how much aliveness comes from
simply paying attention -
to ourselves,
to our bodies,
as we are.
Giving thanks for life and living
and the great gift of a superbly-crafted vehicle.
Not wishing anything to be other than it is.
No 'should', 'must', 'can't'.
Simply accepting ourselves -
as we are -
fully, completely, with love and tenderness.
Listening to who we are.
Being who we are.
Just being...
and being aware of just being.'

Excerpt from 'Eve-olution ~ Enriching Feminine Consciousness and Body Awareness' by Marguerite van der Merwe

Friday, April 1, 2011

The Stage of Life

I received a crystal clear message in last week's meditation group. This 'nudge' from my angels gave me direction and the courage to act this week. Meditation allows me to hear what the Universe is trying to tell me. This is a true gift. I've been struggling with excruciating physical pain for about three weeks, having had no alternative but to adjust the homeopathic medications I've been on for 22 months, due to issues with it's availability. A situation out of my control! I decided to bring my physical healing to my meditation, to put my insecurities and doubts aside and reconnect with my inner wisdom, to find reassurance. To just be open to the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual shifts that can take place in our powerful energy circle.

The focus of this meditation was on a powerful manifestation technique used for creating our realities of choice! We imagined ourselves on a stage ~ the stage of Life ~ where we could witness our lives unfolding, concentrating on how it feels to live the lives we truly desire, see ourselves transformed, being all we can be. We get to step onto our stage and experience our manifested lives NOW, in this way inviting them in.

My safe place in nature was a grassy meadow, bathed in morning light, with tiny yellow wild flowers and jersey cows grazing lazily nearby. I shimmering pink light on the horizon calls my attention and I follow it into another time and space, an enchanted forest and a clearing where a wind whips around me and mist forms to reveal my Highest Self. I've done this guided meditation before and have experienced very strong imagery. This time, I didn't. I FELT my Highest Self, could sense the purest part of me. A beautiful heart chakra green healing light encircled us, making us ONE. A strong feeling of belonging and love. Safe and sacred. I am closely accompanied by my Highest Self as I go deeper into this meditation. We come upon a stage in the forest. I see myself on my stage of Life, in perfect balance ~ my hormones are balanced, my energies are balanced. I am safe and secure. I am vibrantly healthy, glowing. I am happy. I am a fertile, strong yet gentle, feminine, loving woman. I am beautiful. I step onto my stage and I see myself bountifully pregnant, a choice in life I am not yet consciously ready to make. I got the strong sense of being there and here simultaneously: I am healing and I am healed. I heard the words: 'You don't have to worry about anything.'

Physically this meditation was challenging for me, I felt restless and didn't go as deep as I had previously. The group was also filled with new energies. It was a startlingly illuminating experience in other ways though. The sheer openness and honesty of being vulnerable and bringing my insecurities and physical pain to the group is very new to me. I am not too proud (anymore) to look for help and support. I am recognising that my meditation practice is a doorway to deeper knowing and profound healing. A massive headache came upon me from nowhere, a sign from my body that some deep shift had taken place.

We selected two angel cards, I selected two magnificently linked ones: 'HATHOR' ~ Receptivity: Allow yourself to receive. This will increase your intuition, energy and ability to give to others' and 'HELP' ~ Ask for help: Receiving is an act of generosity.' The same message, two ways!

As I navigate this bump in the road, let me be open to receiving help, advice and love from the many angels (earthly and heavenly) that surround me. I did contact my homeopath to give her a report on my condition since changing the medications at the beginning of March. I also followed my intuition this week and approached a homeopathic pharmacist, who was able to assist me by working out a formula and mixing a remedy using homeopathic tinctures, matching my previous medication's ingredients. I have started this therapy and feel hopeful, I am getting back on track. I KNOW that this was a message from above for me to not be afraid, to reach out and use the resources offered to me on this healing journey. Help is always available to me, I just need to be willing to receive it with gratitude and love, I am working on that. I have learned that I can't possibly give in a healthy, sustainable manner unless I am also a gracious and skilled receiver. Thank you, angels!