Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
'Eating is like laundry, it must be done daily. Like housework, it's never over. It's a daily task requiring daily devotion. But it's also like love. Like prayer. We must return to it each day, afresh, with the purest of attention and intention, to make something beautiful. To feed and be fed.'
~ Joanne Fedler
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
'I now call upon the Archangel Raphael ~ the supreme agent of healing in the angelic realm to come to my side to heal and balance anything in my Being that's in need of loving care. I simply breathe and am open and receptive to receiving this angel's help. He's now with me along with his other angels ~ the healing angels ~ helping me and surrounding me with his beautiful emerald green healing light. I am overflowing with it.
I relax my body, knowing that the more I can relax and breathe, the more I become open to receiving the healing angel's help. As I breathe, I'm literally breathing in the healing energy that Raphael brings to me and I can direct the healing energy to any part of my Being that's in need of healing.
I am willing to receive Archangel Raphael's gift of health, vitality and wellness. On the exhale, I release any old toxins, lower energies, old cravings for unhelpful substances or behaviours and anything else that's not supporting my health. Let it go now. I breathe in deeply the great love, the reverence and the honor that Raphael holds for me. I am loved completely by this angel who looks past the surface, looks past any seeming mistakes that I think I've made or not made and sees who I really am ~ a perfect and holy child of God who's a perfect reflection of this light and love that can never be extinguished or soiled in any way.
I sit quietly with the healing angels for the next few minutes, listen to their guidance and follow it as it comes to me through my thoughts, feelings, visions or words and know that I am safe. And so it is.'
~ Healing Prayer to Archangel Raphael by Doreen Virtue
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
'Sisters are different flowers from the same garden.' ~ Author Unknown
'She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best... and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark.'
~ Barbara Alpert
Thank you, my beautiful sister ~ for sharing a lovely tea with me this morning. It was bougainvillea and bindhis and birdbaths and boots and books and banana bread and quiche and teapots and news and angel cards and roses and laughter and inspiration. It was a special sister time just for US. It was one to remember. I love, love, love you so much, Girlie. Thank you for teaching me so much, for supporting my evolution and for just being YOU. x
Friday, March 25, 2011
'Life is an extraordinary tapestry. Our needs, wishes and prayers are carefully woven into this tapestry; with each breath and every step we weave the threads. How we choose to incorporate Life's offerings into our tapestry is always up to us. When we open our hearts and minds to the undeniable support of the Divine Energy at work in every aspect of our lives, miracles do happen. On those occasions when we are in communion with our Divine Souls, even the simplest acts of creation, like the sun rising in the east or a bird sailing in the sky, testify that everyday a miracle is waiting to be born.'
~ Excerpt from 'Heaven and Earth ~ Making the Psychic Commection' by James Van Praagh
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
'Love is energy. It is the supreme energy, the highest power that exists. Love is so supreme, so high, that one refers to it as God. Love is God, but it is also one's True Nature. It is the centre of our Being for it does not exist apart from us. We, however, have lost our centre. We have acquired the notion that love is to be found outside ourselves, and so we go out searching for that which lies within us. We go begging for that which we already have. We are kings and queens but have mistaken ourselves to be beggars.' ~ Yogi Amrit Desai
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
'Sometimes we lose our place, our way.
We lose the vision to see,
the insight to understand,
the voice to speak out for truth,
the will to do what needs to be done.
When we are thus diminished -
and if we have the heart to hear -
our bodies will tell us.
our body's language
we can move towards
the state of perfect health...
for which we are born.'
Excerpt from 'Eve-olution ~ Enriching Feminine Consciousness and Body Awareness' by Marguerite van der Merwe
Monday, March 21, 2011
'Compassion is something we must show ourselves first.'
~ Joanne Fedler
'The power of compassion is seeing ourselves as Source sees us. Compassion is a God quality and when we tap into it, we have access to a very high energy field of healing and well-being. We get to intimately experience Source’s unconditional love for us. We discover what it is like to be loved totally, in every cell of our Being, exactly as we are.
Self-compassion means to fully BE with yourself in a deeply aware and non-judging way as a loyal and trustworthy friend. It is a willingness to be with yourself as a loving companion to your own pain. No one in the world knows your feelings and hurts as well as you do. You know all the intricacies and tendrils of them, firsthand and up close. Because of this you are the one most qualified to bring love to this part of yourself.'
~ Excerpt from Self-Compassion Opens the Door to Self-Healing on Well-being Alignment.com
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
'For this living of an authentically feminine life, we need to explore the mind, heart and soul with our feminine body. We need to rediscover truly feminine qualities in all of our living, being and moving. We need to find true relationship with our female bodies. To evolve from attitudes that do not promote humane relationship within our female selves.
We need to accept our uniqueness and our interconnectedness, our potential and our possibilities. We need the qualities and power of the Feminine in all of us for the balancing and healing of our world. Let us restore the light, life-giving, nurturing, loving sight, sound, scent and touch of the Feminine.'
Excerpt from 'Eve-olution ~ Enriching Feminine Consciousness and Body Awareness' by Marguerite van der Merwe
Friday, March 18, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
'I have never been contained, except I made the prison.' ~ Mary Evans
Another startling meditation group last week. This time I received a subtle message from beyond ~ so subtle, a whisper really, a fleeting thought, so soft and gentle yet so meaningful and soul-stirring.
The theme of this meditation was releasing self-sabotaging thoughts, beliefs and behaviours. We had the opportunity to free ourselves of our conscious and subconscious sabotage patterns ~ the things we think, say or do that undermine our growth and are not for our Highest Good ~ the things that limit our potential to heal our lives. We were encouraged to examine what the pay-off is for us to continue this pattern of self-sabotage, how we keep ourselves in prisons of our own making, how it keeps us safe... and stuck. We were asked to just focus on being willing to release whatever is limiting us, calling on our Higher Power ~ God/Goddess/All That Is to help us heal and make a subtle yet profound shift in our Consciousness. No need to get too entangled in analysing every detail of our self-sabotage, just be open and allow the healing energy in, to just release and let go. The consequences of even a subtle shift can be far-reaching and even life-changing.
The meditation starts in a safe place in nature. I was in a fragrant, thick pine forest ~ tall pine trees surround me, the sun filtering through the pines. I can see the detail of the bark, I feel a bed of pine needles underfoot, pine cones and a tangy, fresh smell of damp earth. I see orbs of light flying around me, guiding me. At first I thought they were fireflies but I feel that these orbs of light are angels, faeries, spiritual Beings, bringers of love and healing light ~ angel orbs. We are asked to take note of a pink light on the horizon, which I can see through the trees. It beckons us. I follow the light, the angel orbs of light accompany me into another time and space. I find myself standing before a massive Nordic lake, it is dark and stormy, the water is a dark indigo colour, the sky thick and dark with snowy clouds. The air is crisp and cold. I see icebergs on the lake, white tips above the surface ~ our conscious lives, what we show the world and the larger body of the iceberg below the surface ~ our subconscious, what is hidden from the world and sometimes hidden from ourselves. These are our deeply held icebergs of self-sabotage. Mine are huge, gnarled, thickly frozen, organically-shaped blocks of ice. They contain sea creatures that are static, frozen in the thick ice, I see fish, eels, turtles, an octopus, dolphins, starfish, jellyfish, all so still. It makes me sad. To me this is symbolic of the happiness, liveliness and beauty that I deny myself on some level. My self-sabotaging patterns keep me frozen, stuck and in pain. I identify my current pattern of self-sabotage as my addiction to food and the ways I sabotage myself on my weight-loss journey and compromise my hormone health by giving in to cravings for sugar and refined carbohydrates, repeating the cycle of gaining and losing the same 4 kilograms at my current plateau. (Aargh!) We are asked to remove our icebergs, either with force, exploding them apart or to gently melt them. My orbs, my suns, my circles of light touch the surface of the lake and it feels like the sun comes out. It gets warmer and brighter, sunlight breaks through the clouds. A warm, healing energy permeates the water, warming it through, the icebergs gently start moving, start to melt. The creatures frozen in their ice traps swim free. It is a huge sense of release. A freeing of stuck energy. A happiness. My healing brings such light, warmth and love. I bring all this. My heart is a sun that wants to burst and unfreeze the Universe!
I leave the lake with my angel orbs hovering nearby, I see and somehow feel my Mom's energy with me. She is here with me. We hold hands and walk back through the trees, arms swinging, I glance back at my sunny lake and smile an inner smile.
I sense a Being nearby trying to communicate with me, it is calling me, it is a young energy. I hear a small voice calling me, it is very gentle and sweet, so vulnerable. It wants to be loved, it is asking me to love it. I instantly say to it: 'I will be your mother, come to me, I'm your Mama.' My authentic, unrehearsed response pops up from a deep place, a tender place. I believe this Being to be the spirit of my future daughter. The one I didn't even know I wanted. I recognise her. My Mom's energy was present during this meditation, did she bring my daughter's energy to me? Has all the inner work I'm doing cleared the way for this message to find me? This quick and subtle soul-kiss from beyond is such an unexpected discovery. This daughter of mine may be visiting me from a past life, she may be for me to love in this lifetime or in future lifetimes. She may be my own inner child making herself known, returning home. I am open to ALL. It's a precious moment I will cherish forever.
An astounding synchronicity, as the angel card I selected read: 'ROSETTA ~ You have a gift for working with young people and your Divine purpose involves helping, teaching or parenting children.' The card is pink with an illustration of a little girl holding a bunch of roses. A gift of such beauty, it is (almost) beyond words, I feel blessed.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
'My life is a mirror. Every person in my life is a reflection of some part of me. The people I love reflect the loving aspects of myself. The people I dislike reflect those parts of myself that need healing. Every experience in life is an opportunity for growth and healing. The people in my life are really mirrors of me. This affords me the opportunity to grow and to change.' ~ Louise L. Hay
Sent to me lovingly by my dearest friend, my Mich. x
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
'Traveller, there are no paths. Paths are made by walking.'
~ Aboriginal Saying
'An eating meditation, or spiritual principles, for losing weight, leaving home or letting go...
I like principles. They re-tune the mind in the way we might reset a watch that has been set for another time and place. They are places to come back to. As we each follow our path of choice, the Kabbalah tells us that there is also a personal path, called 'Nativ', which must be forged by each of us individually, day by day, in each moment we make sacred by our Awareness. Here are some principles I have learned in the course of my journey, reminding me that how I do ANYTHING is how I do EVERYTHING:
1. When hungry, eat: Let your needs guide you.
2. Always ask: Make no assumptions. Come with a beginner's mind. Be open to what is uncertain.
3. Make healthier choices: There are consequences to what and how we choose.
4. Thank the food: Everything we have is a result of some sacrifice someone or something has made. We can practice gratitude for whatever is in front of us.
5. There is always enough: Have faith that everything you need in this moment is being provided. Trust that there will be more when you need it.
6. Savour the taste: Taste, like the breath, happens in the present moment. Celebrate every mouthful with the question: How is it for me?
7. Slow down: The spaces between mouthfuls, the hunger between meals, grows our awareness to our true nature.
8. Digest: The body knows what to do. Trust it. Give it time.
9. Flush and wash: Let go of what you don't need to hold onto anymore.
10. Begin again: Come back, return, re-commit.'
From 'When Hungry, Eat' by Joanne Fedler
Monday, March 14, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
'She knows her Power.
Her supreme place
in the Great Spirit's scheme of things.
She is gorgeously abundant, independent, authentic,
dark and dangerous, passionate, outrageous,
prone to dancing in the moonlight,
not averse to tossing her mane.
And utterly, utterly
her natural Self.'
Excerpt from 'Eve-olution ~ Enriching Feminine Consciousness and Body Awareness' by Marguerite van der Merwe
Saturday, March 12, 2011
'Everyone is talking about finding their 'purpose' lately. It is not so complicated. We all have the same purpose ~ to reflect and reveal the face of Divinity. You are an expression of the Divine walking in the world everyday. Awakening to that truth IS your purpose.' ~ Michael Bernard Beckwith
Friday, March 11, 2011
A certain situation has shifted this week. I have become aware that I am seeking nurturance outside of myself, a mother figure, a sisterhood. I opened up and wanted to be welcomed into a loving, healing embrace and be cherished. I am looking for a meaningful connection. Someone I can trust with my pain. I want people to pay their respects, to respect my grief. To make space for me. To be interested. I see that I am looking to be soothed when I really need to soothe myself. Am I just searching for sympathy? Asking too much? Do I just want attention? Or do I simply want to be loved? Am I looking in the wrong places? Why do I continue to look outside myself for love and acceptance? Do my internal deficits make me look elsewhere? My pain says: 'I don't want to know you, you are not worth knowing. You are a nuisance, go away. You are not worth my time. Your pain is not as important as you think it is. You are a burden.' This is how it felt. Sometimes a subtle sigh or tone of voice or silence from someone can change things for me. I am so, so sensitive. I used to see my sensitivity as a weakness and would guard against the hurt I would feel by hurting others, by being abrasive or withdrawing or withholding love, punishing. I now see my sensitivity as a beautiful thing, a feminine thing, my delicate inner barometer of self-care. As the layers of my old self dissolve, I am left more sensitive than ever. I am available and emotional and tender. All signs of growth. I am attempting to rise above this situation and accept it as all part of the winds of change. Another layer to move through, grow through and learn from. Every moment of this journey is an evolution. Things change. It does disappoint me though, right to my core. Let these tears heal me and let me move on. I make space for me, I am here for me.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
'Love is that which both created and sustains you. It is both your connection to your true reality and your alignment with the positive flow of the Universe. Remembering this Divine Truth ~ that love is who you are ~ is the key to your healing.' ~ Marianne Williamson
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Circle in Her Name
'I am That,
That which births
I am Creation.
Mothering womb of time.
I am coming.
So wake me from my slumber,
of Divine Feminine.
For I am here.
You, circle of seeded women.
The moon calls your tides
and invokes your sacred cycles.
Return to my side and be in your gentle power.
I am the Lady,
In me surrender
To your wholeness
And your Divine perfection.
I am That.
That which is Everything.'
As I celebrated my magnificent menstrual gift this last weekend, I pondered the return of my menstrual cycle and what it means to me to return to the Feminine. Each month I feel connected to the Earth and to all of womanhood as I join my sisters, paying homage to the Moon Goddess and with reverence practice the ancient rituals of honouring this sacred process. I stand in my feminine power. At last.
'I offer this text to speak of the privilege we have as women to have the ability to bleed. We have a womb! A womb that contains awesome physical and emotional power, that can create, cultivate and sustain life. We have a menstrual cycle, blessed by the cycle of the Moon Goddess, every 28 days. In ancient times, women took their Moon Time to rest, meditate, release the unwanted and honour their bodies, while celebrating womanhood. It was a time of honouring the female creative force. Women and men both understood the importance of allotting this time of sacred space for women, as they were the carriers of future generations. Since we experience blood flow as a result of no impregnation, symbolically, the blood was an offering back into Mother Earth to be recycled and renewed for the next coming cycle. Because there were no outside influences, like electrical lighting, contraceptive pills or processed hormone-filled food, the menstruation cycles of women within a tribe would correspond together with the dark side of the moon.
There is urgency now for women to join together and reclaim our Femininity, to gather together in acknowledgment of our creative force. The Earth is indeed Feminine! We have the ability to heal the balance of Feminine energy on Earth. We can do so by honouring our bodies with rest and good food and allowing our menstruation to come with ease and respect. We can join other women in circles of support and encouragement as we march along this once forgotten path. The power is within our wombs to manifest a new reality for humankind. It is not about competing with men or fitting in to be equal where they sit. Instead we can carve a new Goddess seat for women and create unity, a community of power and shared communication that invokes and honours our Goddess-likeness to create and birth our dreams, our children, our futures and the health of the Great Earth Mother. I challenge with love every woman to look within the power of their belly and creative life force and spark joy, pride and gratitude for their unique ability to be in the cycle of the moon and to impact the Earth.'
Excerpt from an article by Lady Sammy ~ Owner of The Rock Store, Hatha/Ashtanga Yoga Teacher, Reiki Teacher, Crystal Therapist and Ritual Coordinator
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
'Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.' ~ Rumi
I had my first reflexology treatment with my sweet sister today! Organic aromatherapy candles, soft music, crystal-infused Africology essential oil vapour, rose quartz crystals in each hand, fragrant Africology rose body balm applied to my feet and my highly intuitive, knowledgeable and nurturing healer of a sister. Aaaah!
I'm adding reflexology into my healing mix because it's a modality that transcends the physical and integrates mind/body healing, Chinese medicine and energy work ~ healing on every level. We work through the sacred geometry of the feet on the essential organs and body systems, energy flow and address mental, emotional and spiritual blockages, with an emphasis on balancing the yin/yang masculine and feminine energies. I am bringing the conditions of endometriosis and polycystic ovaries to this modality but its influence is far-reaching. The feet tell all! I am blocked, blocked, blocked! I am stuck, I am closed and inflexible, tight. It may be that the first reflexology session is slower and with ongoing treatment, more and more layers will fall away, so deeper work can begin. It may be that I'm not truly ready to open up completely to my sister as a healer and my body was protecting me, echoing this unconsciously. This is a new chapter, bringing my healing home. Can I learn to be vulnerable? Can I learn to trust, to flow? Where do these inner barriers come from? What do I fear?
My sister read some truths in my feet... My energy is very congested, there is no flow. I am swollen, retaining water, I'm struggling a bit with my eating, the sugar I am eating is bloating me. I have an issue right now trusting my financial independence, I am fearful of losing financial security. I hold onto money, this fear is in the spine of my lower back and has spread to my colon. I hold on and hold in. My lower middle and upper back and shoulders are an issue, again ~ security and grounding. This is more pronounced on my left side, my feminine, oh, the pain! My uterus feels spongy (a positive thing!) My ovaries feels 'crunchy'. There is congestion in my sinuses and my right ear (sugar/dairy!) All my supporting joints are tight ~ knees, ankles, elbows, wrists, this is inflexibility and feeling stuck. I am grasping and clutching my masculine energy, my right foot is communicating huge insecurities, I don't want to let go of my old ways. I must flow, trust. I must breathe deeply and do squats! She saw a vision of me swirling around in a pretty dress. I must buy a vintage floral chiffon dress with ruffles and lacy, feminine underwear. I must wear these, experience my beauty and feel my feminine power!
I selected an angel card after the session, mine was: 'Angelic Guidance' ~ 'If you want to tell anything to God, tell it to the wind. Listen to your inner Being. Only in the stillness of the depths of your Soul can you know God. Find the small voice within. Everything you experience is remembered, every answer is found within. Only in the silence can the answers be heard. If you talk to to your angels, the messages are carried directly to God. Voice your prayers out loud to the Universe, choose your words carefully, open your heart... the angels are there.' So... continue to talk to my angels, listen to my BEING, engage my inner wisdom, find stillness, affirm, open my heart and trust.
I am feeling very tired now, quite relaxed. I'm loving the wafts of gorgeous rose fragrance from my skin all day! The rose is a powerful symbol of feminine power, so apt! Roses balance our feminine aspect and restore serenity, they are a potent treatment for hormonal, menopausal and sexual difficulties (hello!), it is also a mild anti-depressant and balances the emotions. I feel that I have opened Pandora's box today with this treatment and am looking forward to going deeper and breaking down these barriers, these inner shields. The possibilities for healing are endless and I see this as a unique opportunity to marry my intentions for healing with the healing of my relationship with my sister, a way to be close that we haven't yet experienced ~ a beautiful synchronicity. Thank you, my sister!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
'It's only when you hold your life up to the light, looking for the way happiness moves through it, that you'll see it's kaleidoscopic. It's impossible to distinguish a shard of joy before it shifts like coloured glass, changing every shade and shape with it. What's wonderful is strangely meshed in with what's painful too.' ~ Joanne Fedler ~ 'When Hungry, Eat'
Saturday, March 5, 2011
'Sometimes I imagine colours as if they were living ideas, being of pure reason with which to communicate. Nature is not on the surface, it is deep down.' ~ Paul Cézanne
'Green is the fresh emblem of well founded hopes. In blue the spirit can wander, but in green it can rest.' ~ Mary Webb
A beautiful thought from dear Karin G during our healing session yesterday ~ my work with her is always heartfelt, enlightening and insightful ~ gentle yet profound, this session in particular. There was such a sense of peaceful completion, of closure, such deep realisations about this journey.
Her treatment room has double glass doors that frame a living, moving tree-filled 'painting' in a thousand GREENS. Yesterday the doors were flung open to let in the warm afternoon breeze. This openness is new to me, it felt so liberating, echoing my feelings of lightness and newness. Karin and I sat together and looked at all the greens. She said: 'Green is the colour of love ~ as is the heart chakra ~ just as the eye sees a thousand different shades of green that make up a garden, so are there infinite forms, shades, tints and tones of love.' Love is infinite in it's depth, just as there are countless tender new leaves budding on Earth, each in their own unique shade of green. I LOVE this analogy! Green is a growth colour, the colour of newness, of promise. I am entering a new phase of my healing journey through my grieving process. Feeling fully immersed in my grief also simultaneously immerses me in love, as the one cannot exist without the other. I am tuning into my heart chakra energy, feeling it vibrate within and without with each heartbeat and am absorbing all the layers upon layers of endless, beautiful greens that surround me. I am filled with boundless newness and with love, I am saturated in green and it is beautiful!
This reminds me of a moment back in art school, when we were given an assignment in colour theory. We were asked to complete the exercise of mixing one hundred different shades of green in acrylic paint, using only primary colours. I didn't think it was possible! Now I think: only one hundred? I now know that nothing is impossible! Love is green, love is infinite and love heals.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
'Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind you.' ~ Maori Proverb
Still a little fragile, I am consciously gentle with myself. Today is a new day. I'm turning my face (and heart) to the sun and soaking up it's warmth. Everything is as it should be. I will be okay.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
'Life is eternal, and love is immortal, and death is only a horizon; and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight.' ~ Rossiter Worthington Raymond
'Oh heart, if one should say to you that the soul perishes like the body, answer that the flower withers, but the seed remains.' ~ Kahlil Gibran
'Give sorrow words;
the grief that does not speak
Whispers the o'er-fraught heart
and bids it break.'
~ William Shakespeare
'She was no longer wrestling with the grief, but could sit down with it as a lasting companion and make it a sharer in her thoughts.' ~ George Eliot
Mom ~ we lost you ten years ago today and it still feels like yesterday! A lifetime in ten years. Today I give myself space to honour you, to celebrate your life and our eternal bond. I followed my instincts and designed a personal ceremony to mark this special day ~ just for you and for me. I planted a beautiful rose bush, blooming with creamy peach roses in my garden in your honour today. Something life-giving that can grow and bloom and remind me of your beauty. Candles and incense are burning for you all day. You are here! I've lost count of the butterflies that have visited me today! I feel you very strongly, there is so much love around me. I am so grateful for all the love and support from the people close to my heart. This is an emotional day, there have been a few tears so far but mostly I feel a calm peacefulness, I am gently seeing myself through this milestone, tuning into my Being and listening to what I need. I am committed to expressing and working through my grief and not cling to it. I am changing, I am healing! I've come so far. I know you are proud of me, I'm proud of me! You are always part of me. I miss you. I love you so, so much, Mom. With all my heart.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
'You have to remember one life, one death ~ this one! To enter fully the day, the hour, the moment whether it appears as life or death, whether we catch it on the inbreath or outbreath, requires only a moment, this moment. And along with it all the mindfulness we can muster, and each stage of our ongoing birth, and the confident joy of our inherent luminosity.' ~ Stephen Levine